So This Is How It Feels

So this is how it feels To be sadder than sad Losing you in a snap Like the bubbles that pop Before I can really hold it So this is how it feels To miss the chance To fulfill the dreams, the plans Because in a sudden twist Fate decided and the dance Never started So this is how it feels To remember and knowing Those moments with you Will be lasting but fleeting Bitter and sweet Your victory, my defeat. So this is how it feels Numbness, helplessness Reality shots a void Nothing or nobody could fill Empty as it is That space in my heart Will forever hold Your puzzle piece. You kept your silence in your pain Managed to show How happy you were When I saw you again. Never really thought That was the last Warm embrace and farewell kisses. You were set to go, Because in your heart you know You have done What you had to do In this world of living Which we all will be leaving You went ahead Without saying goodbye. So I guess It is not goodbye But ‘I love you.’ Like you didn’t always say But showed anyway. So this is how it feels For a daughter To lose a father. I love you, Pa.