Who Wants A Scrub?

Whose song was that with these lyrics: "I don't want no scrub..."? Oh yeah, TLC. This song surely contains this feeling i so want to burst out! What is a scrub anyway? "A scrub is a guy that can't get no love from me... And a scrub is checkin' me but his game is kinda weak.. And I know he can't approach me cause I"m looking like class and he's looking like trash..." (No Scrub by TLC) Sigh. I feel a little sulking over what i just realized. It was a total waste of time. I have spoiled hankies and tissue rolls for a nonstop pour of sorrowful tears. I consumed glasses of rich choco sundae and crispy fries and a plateful of pansit miko-bihon as immediate relievers for insanely thinking about my depressed state of being a wrenched quasi-dumpee! This is the classic case of a frustrated lover... almost there but not really. That scrub, the culprit. Oh well, since i've wasted so much time thinking of loving him (wow, i almost made him rich), enough with this. I don't want no scrub. And i definitely doesn't want that bloating couch potato! (Ahaha... i still sounded bitter.) =(

I Am A Weakling

"Owkie...te,kala ko b palaban kyo?ano b yan?bt prang lupoy n kyo!" - Bebi Norman, (3/29/2005 9:30:44 AM) I am a weakling when love strikes. The thief has come. It ransacked all of me when it decided to leave the night i discovered the intrusion. It was unexpected. Will i be able to regain the strength? Where had love placed all of me? Will i be forever seeking for me? Dear source of Love, provide me with the shield i so need when the thief would return. Let not this stupid mistake bring me down. I am a weakling yet to be a love heroine. We'll see...

IMPOSSIBLE LOVE

When I fell for you, I walked on the waters. I crossed the fires. I captured the wind. I ate the earth. I sang without the tune. I saw nothing. I heard silence. I smiled in sorrows. You fell for me. (sgd.) TINAO 03/23/05

Magical Dusts

There has not been any progress after several attempts of forgetting him. He haunts me still. Every Nissan Patrol would still give me that strange heartbeat and goosebumps.

Wherever he is, I hope he doesn't know. I hope he doesn't even realize that he sprinkled magic dusts on my mind and heart and the spell is still in effect.

Maria in Me

A few more leaves and im done with Coelho's Eleven Minutes. It was due to be returned today and so i asked my cousin to renew the date of return at the UST Library. She reminded me that UST Library books must be in on or before March 2. Yeah, i said. There was Maria in the book. To be fair, Coelho artistically described the agony of Maria's life. I felt like i was the character, a bit exagerrated though because i'm not a prostitute. In more ways than one, Maria, much like desperate to find her one true love, is ME. And did I say ME? Yes, pretty true - desperate to find my one true love. Where must he be? Is he someone i know? Or someone i still have to know? Or, is there someone??? Maria braved the storms in her life, putting the strong woman facade for everyone to see including her family in the backlands. And as i look at myself, im never too far-comparing with her struggles. Maria touched my soul. As i finally end reading the book, i know that Maria will live on as she taught me lessons of climbing to the cliff and see the vastness beyond and then stepping down again to share how the climb was.

Love is Saying 'Hello'

"Hello Tin, sasama ka ba sa Batulao...?" That was Noni asking me over our mobile conversation while I was on my ride with Miss Chit to InterCon Hotel where he is waiting. I answered, "OO..." A bit shy. Whew! I felt my heart beat a little faster than normal when we hung up our phones. Im seeing him in minutes and I was so excited then. Every tickling second is a bombshell. I fear that I might notbe able to behave well... but hey, that's Noni i'm seeing... the bachelor! Awww... so i started thinking he is the IMPOSSIBLE LOVE, the dreamboy! And it helped a lot. But God, Love is saying hello at me. I dont know what to say back. Please help. Here are photos taken at the Chateau Royale in Batulao. There were 3 of us -- Ms. Chit, Noni and I. Enjoy!

L to R: Me, Noni and Miss Chit. Standing right behind her is the cute waiter. :)

The function hall. Noni said this would be a great wedding venue. Yeah! I think so too!

The theater house.

Team building grounds behind us. With a paintball field!

Water everywhere! Poolside.

Orchidarium.

Care to wallclimb? Noni in white. He is just so cute!

The floating restaurant behind us.

A little closer.

Ice Cream Sandwich

Food has been very friendly with me lately... yumyum! What does one do with Gardenia bread and a can of Very Rocky Road or Double Dutch on the table? No more apprehensions...catch me scooping the cold delight and slipping it between the loaves of Gardenia! Whew..i told you. Food gives me the very comfort i so need these days... Let's see if I can live to this still after a few weeks.

Last Chance

I've been told this and again: GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS. True. One could never comprehend how immense the hands of God can work in your life. I would never believe it until God is actually bringing me into realizing it is really happening! I have always been dreaming of spending one good time with the GUY i learned to love only from a distance. And then for a moment, i was with him, in the flesh! I would only utter in my mind my tantra, "Good Lord, thanks, thank you so much!!!!" each passing time that i was with him. He was so kind, extending his self to me. And how could i ever forget this? I've etched his facial features in my mind because i know this will be my last chance to be with him. His coy smile and his eyes looking away when i glance at him, they're just so wonderful! Sigh. But will this be the last chance? You have Your ways Lord, let them be.

First in the row

i thought it's high time i create my blogspot as what everyone is apparently doin... thanks for anya's addiction to this, i was inspired after being curious.